This is a huge struggle for me. I think there is a power dynamic to it that is plain and right out there. My T is really passionate about his space/ his office, and how safe it is. Given that, and how insistent he is about overcoming resistance and progressing into dar, anguishing topics, it sometimes feels heartless to get the boot in a twofold way 1) I live in a smallish city and have a public job, so I know people on the streets. I feel like a surgeon opened me up and forgot to end with stitches walking out wth tear streaks. 2) It makes me feel like my T is faking it, or bean counting with time when no one else I now acts that way with other humans. He doesn't do the intensive engagement outside of sessions. Knowing he works a four day week makes me a bit cynical I think.
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