I’m not having a good day. I’ve not been having a good day the last few days. I was hoping to get out of work early to go see t but my coworker didn’t show up and my boss isn’t here so I have to somehow keep it together enough to manage this place. I don’t think I’m in danger of actual suicide but self harm is an ever present danger and screwing up the good things I do have going on in my life right now.