Are you able to make friends with others who have asberges ? ( Sorry if I spelt that wrong I always do ) . My daughter is 16 and she has it . She is able to make friendships with others that have it too , but not really those who don't , not a close level .
Are there social groups you can go to to help you meet people ? Are you getting any support at all ? If not is there away to get it ?
I'm sorry about your family and how you are feeling . I really hope things can get better for you and I think they would if you could get some support and meet people similar who also struggle but together you could slowly form a friendship together.