hi

i didn't feel good today

i'm thinking about how i can't be fixed
sorry i talk about this all the time

but it really does bothers me everyday

i remembered a bible verse

about how god didn't bother to help satan because he already knew he can't be saved

that made me so upset because i kept thinking about myself

and how i still feel like this for years

and i can't be saved like satan

i prayed at night. Not very often but I really wanted an answer or help.

cuz this has been going on for too long

also i want to know if god is real because i'm having existential crisis now

nothing really happened but i wanna believe

that's all , guys