I feel that I'm heavily medicated but whenever I'm exposed to a situation that permits an opportunity for spending, I spend. The whole thing is really embarrassing I generally buy clothes because I keep trying to find something that will make me look attractive. I feel ugly and I keep trying to find something to satisfy that low self-esteem. I have spent so much on clothes and shoes that I can't contribute to household expenses (except for groceries). My husband manages all the major financial concerns in our home. I beat myself up all the time for not being able to contribute. The most significant way for me to manage the situation has been to stay away from shopping malls.