Someone like your therapist should not be practicing. I can't wrap my mind around what she is doing. She is condoning abuse, plain and simple. I'd run away from her as fast as I could. It's too bad she cannot be disciplined for what she is doing. It's really worth to spend some time trying to find a better therapist who'd write you the letter then to stay in this abusive relationship with her. Yes, I consider what she is doing to you abusive. If you leave sessions feeling bad about yourself, you are being emotionally abused.