I was just diagnosed last year. I'm 54. I've made 1 friend over the last 40 years. I'm just no good at it. Have had bipolar for 40 years which still isn't under control. I've been on disability a total of 19 years and been hospitalized 16 times for depression. Just started a new therapist but have little hope and energy left. My father's my only support, my mother/brothers haven't contacted me in years. I just want everything to go away, it's a terrible life. I appreciate kind words.