Ever since the big rupture I just have not felt the same about T, about therapy, about the whole package that is "us."

I continue to move forward in my healing, so it's not as if nothing is happening, and I still hold certain feelings for him that are loving-- but the closeness I once felt has a certain distance that didn't exist before. That makes me sad because there are things I used to tell him that I can't now because I am afraid to. I feel more alone than I have in a long time. For a short while there I was able to pretend that T and I were a team. Maybe that's how it is supposed to be--okay when you are there and not okay when you are not?

Then, show up for therapy and talk about whatever is on your mind at the moment and forget about the awful feelings you were consumed with two days prior?

Yes, for those who ask--we have talked about the rupture over and over and over again. We are not fighting now but I'm thinking that maybe what I am experiencing is a frustration with the unequal partnership that this arrangement really is. So, it doesn't feel like all it's cracked up to be.

Has anyone experienced this and recovered it? Is maybe the end around the corner?

Peace