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Originally Posted by SorryShaped
She did make it in. I'm still beyond p!$$3d that she drove inebriated, but I'm grateful she's safe. She kept wanting sex last night and I was not in a mindset to do so, which she didn't understand, but I persevered with it not happening. I was also very drunk by the time she got here and I won't when I've been drinking, especially the first time with someone.
At one point last night I started to understand something new to me, that I'm way too attached to everything in my life.
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Oh deary... yeah I've been there. It happens. It sucks. Good on you for holding back while you're drunk. She'll appreciate it in the long run. I've been in her shoes and it was always an insult for me when I was high. Looking back, it made me feel insecure. It's a human response. Now that y'all are sober you can communicate your feelings and experience sex on way better if not healthier terms.
And thats a big step to be self-actualized about your attachments! Because then you can explore coping mechanisms and ways to manage those attachments and reduce your anxiety. Seriously, that's huge. I support you on your path and urge you to keep going
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