yes, I have experienced something similar. I think for me I had different expectations of what I was to receive. Eventually I topenned up to focussing on what I did receive rather than what I wasnt receiving. I looked at it and was satisfied. I could see that while what I had wasnt my ideal, it was a relatinship that could help me heal. I still had disappointment though. *hugs* Hoping you can push through it if you find therapy beneficial.