It seems that whenever I truly feel that someone has done me an injustice and I stand up for myself people come down on me and just won't let it go. I get accused of being "out of control" (I usually don't feel that I am; I'm usually just expressing righteous anger). In therapy I'm always told to prioritize self-care and assert myself when I feel someone has crossed my boundaries. But when I put that into practice it just goes all wrong. I often wonder if, because I am usually kind and empathetic, that when I become angry people are *shocked* that I am not always kind and empathetic. It's like...OH! She doesn't want to be walked all over! She must have gone crazy! Is she taking her meds?!

I end up, almost every time, feeling like I need to be nice ALL of the time. Or I need to be absolutely tranq'ed on high doses of meds so I keep my mouth shut. Because if I dare to stand up for myself it just seems like the people close to me are completely non-supportive. Due to that I tend to isolate a lot. Who wouldn't....