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Originally Posted by Betty_Banana
One day in therapy my therapist told me that one of my parts had been talking to him and asked me what was going on with me,what was happening with me while they were.I had no clue what he was talking about.After that day he would ask me "what just happened to you,where were you just now?" right afterwards.It took a very long time of him asking questions but eventually I was able to become aware that I was frozen inside in the background and didn't know what was being said.After awhile though I was able to hear bits and pieces and then later on I could hear and remember what a part had said.It took a long time to build up to that.And even longer to stay present while a part was talking through me.
Mine all happened internally and nothing external like with you but I was thinking that since you are already aware of what's going on and that they're talking to you inside or out loud or that you're switching,maybe it might help if you start asking yourself questions right afterwards.Like "where was I just now,what was happening with me" and maybe it might eventually help.If you can figure out what's going on with you then you might be able to change it.
Are you in therapy?Have you asked your therapist about it?
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I tried so hard to see a therapist once and pushed the paperwork and waiting months to see one...then right then and there, a male alter told her that there “wasn’t anything wrong with me”...she then asked why were we there for...and he said he don’t know....I prayed that it was seen as a shout out, I was devastated. Our next potential T we met once, was scary, and then finances flopped.
These daze times my mind is so full of chitter chatter that staying present enough to come to grips is impossible, like trying to not drown. Whomever is the loudest in head starts fronting, then another cuts it short, then another, and another.....
I wish it was epilepsy....
I know it’s because we are many and very prone to dissociation...one part trying to over ride the present part...like dying to be heard...we just freeze because another part dons the convo which causes a mental switch to that part...
Has anyone used like a talking token, raised hands, or some kind of method to organize the internal chaos?
It’s been a daily life long thing that contributes to a lot of missing memories and time...a segmented and broken up day that just fades away into oblivion...
Maybe I should just shut up and just accept that this is our way and nothing in this life is going to change it and stop commenting or even talking about it.
I can’t help but to feel hopeless.