Thank you for all the responses on this. I know I should leave him but I can’t explain how difficult it is for me. I’m constantly tired and stressed over it and I wake up with nightmares most nights. I am desperate to be alone again because although I love him he feels like a bit of a dead weight.. he follows me everywhere and has no goals or real life of his own which I feel so guilty saying but it’s true. Everything is based on me. If I leave him he will be completely and utterly alone. It’s so hard and it’s starting to really destroy me mentally. I know what the right thing for me is to do but all I can think is the effects it will have on him and because I care so much for him I’m really scared. It’s gotten so bad I found myself thinking “If I was dead I wouldn’t have to deal with this anymore”. I want to cry all the time and I’ve never felt so alone and helpless.