I think we tend to expect too much from ourselves when we get out of the hospital. But when you think about it, would you expect to be back to normal right away if you'd just had surgery or some medical illness? Of course not. But we too are fragile and need time to recover, just as if we'd had pneumonia. Unfortunately, people just don't get that and they think we can (and should) hit the ground running immediately after IP, and it doesn't work that way. Depression or feeling numb isn't at all uncommon in the early days post-hospital, so please don't get down on yourself for that. Take care, and keep posting here. We're here for you.