When I was engaged, I moved in with him and worked at a jewelry store downtown. There was an elderly lady who was the stationery sales person, wedding consultant. Her job was to sit at her desk and wait for a bride to come in. She was very proper, and when she’d come back from lunch, I’d smell liquor on her breath.

One day, I don’t remember what I said to provoke it, she said to me, “You think you know everything. He shouldn’t marry you.”

I let her have it right then and there saying, “You and I work together and have a professional relationship. Let’s keep it professional.” And she grumbled an apology.

IDK, I’ve been thinking about that lately. Just thinking if she was right and saw something terrible in me.

I don’t think I act like someone who thinks they know everything.

Maybe I’m just beating myself up a little now for a failed marriage.

What am I putting out there that people see and I don’t?