Yeah I have this too. 🤫
My T is 12 years older than me and really pretty and well put together.
I have really bad eye contact issues so when she looks away I sort of have a look at her ( this sounds so wrong!) I look at her hands a lot too.
Ergh, hate the power she has over me. I had it a lot growing up too though, girl crushes.
I’m married to a man and quite happy in that department, but can appreciate a good looking/ sexy woman!