Ruby, I think you need to still absorb the fact that stalking is wrong, harassment is wrong, and that you pissed off your supervisor by doing so. She almost had to threaten a restraining order on you because you insisted upon becoming friendlier with her. As Seesaw points out, you have burned a bridge with that supervisor. Do not expect her to care about your well-being. When you piss people off and harass them, you are going to get negative reactions. I don't think you have fully absorbed the repercussions of your actions yet. Yes, it is time to move forward and to let it go. Learn from your past mistakes, but don't keep reliving them.