I think you need to self actualize yourself so you can accept yourself and be authentic. You don’t seem to know yourself well

If going on a trip to Israel or attend bible studies is not your thing , then why do you? It’s not authentic or natural to you, so don’t do it. Going to conservative group and argue about their values might be pointless and unnecessary stressful. If political issues or civil rights is your thing, then try to join those groups?

That lady in the store was rude but honestly arguing with employers policy or not rolling with it might not be the best thing. If you can’t wrap gifts fast and neat, that maybe wasn’t a job for you. There are ton of jobs I’d suck at but I’d never even attempt them (unless I wanted to learn them). Saying that, that woman could keep her mouth close or complain to a manager, not be rude to you