I’m ready to give all the papers to the lawyer, and I melted down today and think I don’t want a divorce. Having a bad day. Having PTSD.

I also have to still say this— this whole thing is about SEX! It’s still all about that. I wanted him to love me and make love to me without me having to ASK FOR IT. Now, when I get horny, it just turns to anger and feelings of humiliation due to how my h acted regarding the sex.

I wish I could crawl in a hole and disappear. IDK what I’m going to do.