I know I have spoke of this before. For those who first met me in chat when I first came to pc. After I trusted , I told some of the story.
Even now writting this little bit, it does not show how fearful i can be.......
It explains why sometimes I can not express my feelings. I have a very hard time with that sometimes. Besides with what I had dealt with growing up, and issues here at home "which I am not going into right now"
Sorry this is coming out jumbled. Maybe cause I get nervous thinking about it.

Back 3 years ago now. After my aunt passed on."she passed from cancer as alot of our family had ,also friends" My cousin and I joined a radio forum and newspaper one. It all had to do with the environment back home.
Back then I use to just say it the way it was. If I did research and came up with info I shared.... Always as imho......sadly some ppl really do not like my thoughts.
It had to due with pollution back home. and big company's.......
Before that I had never been on a forum." After that pc is the only other one I have been on."
Any ways to make a long story short,"as thinking about it makes me uneasy"
I became the target for a persons bullying "a man" Two other woman on the sites faced the same thing. So i was not alone at least. Also my cousin who is a guy.
At the worst of it. Maps to my house were put up. Pictures altered of my son. "As he had been in the paper" So this person could get at that info that way.
My name put all over the sites and my address and my biz was linked to it. My daughters name was smeared at every chance, this person had. My parents were, my cousin was, even my uncle. It was endless.
I had the police involved, lawyers. No one could stop it........
One funeral we had I had to have a body guard there, As I had to go back home. The persons picture had to be shown to the funeral home ppl, They stayed at the door so this person was not allowed in.
Before all this I had never heard the words flamming . After that I knew what it meant.
This man came into the site under different names, So i never knew untill something bad happend. It scared me very badly....and my children.
Imho he came to my home, my biz, In vaded my computer and my cousins. he also was at my cousins home.
I was theatened at one point, if i did not leave the paper and be silent that my name would be all over google and my biz would be harmed. Thinking ppl were not that mean or able to do that..... I did not give up for awhile and it happened. Also I was turned into the sales tax ppl. Who went threw our whole town and checked ppls tax ids.
I had a email sent to me that said that would be done. Once again I really thought , someone could not be that mean. I was fine thou had all my tax papers out.
All as I can say is it was endless. I finally gave up."it scared me to no end" As i was scared to go back home. My kids had to be careful, And the things printed about my daughter were just heart breaking.
Even last summer. I found a blog where my biz name was used in not a nice way. So if ppl put my biz into google that came up.
A few friends from here I trusted, they saw it. Luckly there was a number to call and it was removed in 2 days. Sadly it had been on the net for months.....
Its amazing how words can hurt so badly and make you so afraid.......

If ever here I have hurt anyone cause I could not talk or explain I am sorry.
I wrote this again, to let you all know how grateful for all of you I am. Also to let you know if I seem like I can not talk or explain things, Its not you. Its me pulling back and being afraid.....With everything that has happened in my life....its hard for me to trust.
If I do trust you "I really do"
Hope this was ok to print....just the sheeps thoughts