My family frequently calls me selfish and other negative social adjectives
What they don't understand is had they encouraged me and given me more resources to grow from, I could be a great giver
Unfortunately, since no one tends to my wounds (except for potentially a therapist) and as it seems I am in a position of suicide ideation, I turn out to be very selfish, but my family doesn't care why, only to be angry at me for it
"You never care about us", "You're an anti-social" - all met with outbrusts of anger and huge disrespect towards me, which really hurts

I really don't want to be caring for someone who disregard what I've gone through and just goes angry at me for things which are not my fault
But those kind of people create only more faults - themselves

I have no idea what to do

I guess I am just venting