this is just a rant about my ED..maybe triggering???

Ugh...My goal was to be 108 before my next appointment with my T. I was almost there. I was 117 with only 9 pounds to go and 9 days to go. I can lose a pound- 2 in one day. but then.....the binging began. I at like a pig that one day....and I ruined my goal. I am now back to 120 with only 5 days left until i see my T. I can still be 115, but what's the point if i already ruined my goal. I am still going to shoot for it but i'm going to try harder to stay on track. I HATE YOU ED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!