CY, the things you have to do...work related? or is it something else? modern psychiatry still can't explain the sub-consious mind, your's seems to be trying to tell you something ...URGENTLY!!! it's not giving up, you can try to ignore it or numb it out for a temporary respite but I suggest you simply turn and face it and ask "what do you want?" and listen...our emotional happiness is tied to our "inner child" (sorry for the cliche) maybe he's feeling a little bit neglected...I also love the way you write...you're an artist, and so the creative drive you have depends on being able to tap into " it " ...how do you say it? quit pro quo?