Hey satan,

Welcome to the forums, always cool to get new members! I was reading your posts and what came to mind (and please remember I'm not a doctor and don't have any background in medicine) was you might want to check the internet and do some reading on Dissociative Disorders and Psychosis. It's not as bad as it sounds. But some of the symptoms you describe do fall into these catagories. The internet is an excellent source of information for, well, everything. And then you can follow up with a doctor to see what he/she thinks.

Please keep us informed, and again, welcome to the forums!

Greg