thank you for responding. i wasn't able to respond back as i would have liked b/c of the 5 posts in 24hr period rule, 4 newbies. i wish i was made aware of this b4 i posted b/c i would have chosen differently, about what i post & respond to.
collen,i felt the concern in your message & i really appreciated it. sometimes when you don't know what you need just hearing that others are care helps. I don't feel as dead inside today, but i don't feel alive either, if that makes any sense.