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08:19 PM

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Originally Posted by TishaBuv

What is it you do that is so interesting and exciting? What do you imagine your relationship being like, if not the mundane everyday grind?

I don't know, I just love its experiences, exploring each other and enjoying that

I will confess something which is very hard for me to confess, especially when I am sure some women here have gone through abusive relationships, so there may be a sensitivity to that

Possible trigger:

I have abusive patterns myself. I can be very angry at slight signs of rejections, any slight signs of avoidance. I tried to fix that in my last relationship. I tried to give room for her to speak her heart and mind. It takes more practice. I work hard on being compassionate and not let my angry side slip in
I really want to do what's best for my potential SO, however I can sometimes be very controlling and a pushover. It's only because I worry I will lose her

I know, I am dependent in a way. I try to live life independently, but as I said before, life is kind of meaningless for me without a high-quality romantic relationship
Some people happened to say I sound like an interesting person to date
Some of you may be thinking how is that possible regarding my HF-ASD, so I will say this - don't be judgemental