What was your name back then? I think I remember a similar name.

For me, I definitely have the disorder and I do need the meds that treat it well, but most meds made it even worse. Moreover, I believe that Lamictal monotherapy for an extended period of time as well as Nootropil (a European med) for a short period of time primed my mind for mania. I had had "leanings" but before nothing, in hindsight, beyond light hypo - now I can and did go full blown mania. So your post actually made me finally realize, and I have been lately hard at work thinking through my entire record of being on and off meds, that meds that were ill-fitting (Lamictal to cause mania, Risperdal to cause depression) actually started the wild swings - the swings were not naturally mine.

Thank you so much for the post and very glad to hear that you are loving life. I, too, for the most part.