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Does anyone here have a part that makes you very suicidal or need to escape that everything is doom and gloom.
I have a part that is so desperate to escape that everything is magnified 10 fold. That things will never change, everything is pointless, no one loves you or wants to be around you. It feels painful just to be conscious. All you can think about is not being alive anymore so you do not have to deal with feeling or anything.
It takes all my effort to fight this part and to beat it down back into the hole it came from. When it is out I can not get things done. I feel like I do the bare minimum to participate in daily life.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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