Maybe someone can help me. Yesterday and today I have been shaking, agitated and panicked. I don't know what is wrong. Usually, I can stay calm but I am so close to tears and pacing, pacing. I keep calling my son and they aren't home, I went to the park yesterday and sat in the sun but it was too cold to stay. I have been like this before. Yesterday, I took 2 lorazepam and it worked some. please, my therapist doesn't call me back most of the time. I want to throw up. Am I having a panic attack or am I starting to feel the anniversity of my former marriage. It is on the 20th. We were married for 34 years then he decided he didn't want me anymore. I was in a mental hosp when he served me w/papers and I was left homeless. My family came to my rescue. I'm crying now so maybe that will be a release for me. pj56