I took two doses of Risperdal and stopped because it made me almost pass out, heart rate increased, feel suicidal, super drowsy and unalert (like, at work special needs kids were about to kill each other and I was looking right at it and didn't realize unalert), and feel really restless. It was about ten steps down from where I'm at without meds. Would it be worth it to lay in bed for the next month and hope I don't kill myself (accidentally or intentionally, I can see both happening) and try to adjust or should I just wait until my next appointment and try something else?