Hello everyone.

I am a seventeen years old with impaired ability to socially interact. It all started with my parents.

My parents have mental health issues. My mother was born to my grandmother when my grandmother was 11. (I don't even know how that is possible.) My father was born to a poor family; he therefore himself was a subject to bad parenting. So, yes, so much for genetic makeup. (About my high functionality later.) They were quite crazy even before I was born. Mother had issues with her mother -- she still yells about it to us, eighteen years after she left her maternal home -- and I don't know about my father. My father seems a quite cold person, damaged perhaps, who cares for nothing except money.

Enough of the genetic makeup. I was thrown on the wall by my father when I was around three months old, because he wanted to take revenge of my mother who was fighting/arguing with him at that time. So much for infanticide. It affected my neural functioning and I have a lot of neural disorders now, peripheral neuropathy and schizophrenia to name a few. I am highly functional because of my intelligence (I believe myself to be quite intelligence, but not genius, thus I may not be delusional.)
So here goes physical injury. After that, things went even worse.

My dad used to and still wants to pick me up and drop me at school every day of the week every year. I am seventeen and just received my high school diploma (will turn 18 this year.) So as my friends are enjoying life on two wheelers and even in four wheelers, I am left home sick. I mean, they have it all, smartphones, girlfriends, friends, their usual teenage drama and a quite normal life, motorbikes and sunglasses and all that stuff. Do you think I do not yearn for this all? I mean, I am confined to a cage (my home) where I have to live one odd sibling (I do not blame her for her behavior, she's nine) and two demented parents excluded from the rest of the world.

My parents don't allow me to call my relatives, go outside, make friends, use the internet freely, talk to people, buy video games or have my own motorbike. Or choose my own career. Now you can imagine how poor my social skills are. Girls laugh at me and boys victimize me. Everywhere and everytime it's the same. But I cannot do anything, despite I being moderately bright, people think I am retarded wherever I go. They gawk at me. And my parents expect me to be a class one officer. Talk about realism.

I fall in love too, I want to have fun too, I want to go on a long drive with rider's jacket and sunglasses on, I want to go on a restaurant with friends too, I want to drink too. But I cannot. Due to some events in my life I am left with a pretty weird personality and some complexes (which I do not know of.) I am more interested in boys than in girls. But still, it doesn't make me a lesser human being.

What should I do? I don't know , my doctors are quiet.