I'm so dizzy right now from last night... I... think I know what you mean. I, too, walk around the city in strange hours of the night. I, too, feel depressed enough to not care if I OD or am run over by a bus or killed by a stray bullet (very common in Rio lol).
I'm sorry that people like us (seemingly smart and with love to share) have to feel like crap.

Just wanted you to know that you're not the only one. And that meeting you in chat was fun.