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I still struggle with my moods, especially dysthymia. Life is not always great for me Moose. But at least I control my world now, not my illness controlling me as it did in the past. I wish I could glide through life with ease and grace like some seem to, but its work and tiresome at that. Again, I am glad that I am not defined by my chronic mental illness. I hope you find a way to control your illness Moose so that most of your energy can be spent on finding contentment.

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Thanks, Topher!

I had a great weekend in terms of communication with my boyfriend and even-ness of mood. It is good to feel calm and watch my mood chart show this, too! I also saw my pdoc today and my depakote levels are being checked (we just upped the dose and took away the Abilify) as soon as I can get into the lab, plus a few other things.

Being diagnosed with bipolar was a shock- but at the same time, a relief, as now I have a name for my symptoms and can be pro-active.

As for my employer, they haven't said anything negative, that I've heard of, about my having so many dr's appointments/needing sick time off. Some days its for mental health, sometimes physical health... I have had to have a week off for an intestinal infection, as I was in the hospital back a couple months ago, for instance. Today, I offered to come in and work through lunch, which is the most important part of the day, then go to my appointment. They were happy with this arrangement, so I've tried to work all my appointments this way, now.