Hello DeeAri: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Honestly... I don't really know what happened here. From what you wrote, it sounds as though H & M just got together on the side & decided that you are too difficult. And so they agreed to both block you. It's sad that they chose to "freeze you out", so to speak, with nary a word of explanation. It's also quite rude in my estimation. But when you're dealing with people you only know on-line, this sort of thing can happen. (It's not necessarily even unheard-of in real life.)

To me, though, perhaps the greater question is... what has caused you to become so enmeshed in these on-line relationships that they have the power to break your heart into pieces. On-line relationships are certainly fine. But when they become so important to you that losing them can break your heart, it seems to me as though they may have gone too far.

One thing you didn't mention, in your post is anything with regard to the real-life relationships you have. Hopefully you have some & these are strong. My personal advice, with regard to H & M would be to just forget about them. They're not worth the grief they have caused you.

One forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/coping-emotions/

And then here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of how to mend a broken heart:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/12-way...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/help-o...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/chang...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/dealing-with-betrayal/

I wish you well...