It's really hard to live when you're living with people who don't know how to parent. I mean, I thought I am a genius and yet I cannot even comb my hair. I thought I had talent in psychology but I couldn't talk to people. All this because my parents chose to raise me the way they did. I may be suffered from autism and this is absolutely painful PHYSICALLY. Because I am utterly exhausted by my daydreaming (which kicks in after I am stressed out.)

Seriously, who thought it'd be a great idea to not let your children go outside, learn a bicycle, then eventually ride a gear motorbike and live independently, get girlfriends and style their hair? For how long will they keep me as an infant who cannot do anything?

I don't know, I wanted to own a royal enfield but I am still like I am four to five years old mentally. They expect me to be a class one officer, how ridiculous I believe. I mean, I weigh around 100kg, am psychotic/neurotic, have no friends, no connections, and they still expect me to "do something in life" and "create history."

I mean, I don't think I can be normal now... Can I?

My peers are like "Oh, he's a retard! We can extract money from him." That hurts me because I know I am autistic and not a retard. Nothing can be done. It's not painful because I am emotionally numb. Brain damage? Perhaps.