[QUOTE=Skeezyks;6148810]Hello DeeAri: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Honestly... I don't really know what happened here. From what you wrote, it sounds as though H & M just got together on the side & decided that you are too difficult. And so they agreed to both block you. It's sad that they chose to "freeze you out", so to speak, with nary a word of explanation. It's also quite rude in my estimation. But when you're dealing with people you only know on-line, this sort of thing can happen. (It's not necessarily even unheard-of in real life.)

To me, though, perhaps the greater question is... what has caused you to become so enmeshed in these on-line relationships that they have the power to break your heart into pieces. On-line relationships are certainly fine. But when they become so important to you that losing them can break your heart, it seems to me as though they may have gone too far.

One thing you didn't mention, in your post is anything with regard to the real-life relationships you have. Hopefully you have some & these are strong. My personal advice, with regard to H & M would be to just forget about them. They're not worth the grief they have caused you.

One forum, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the coping with emotions forum. Here's a link:

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Hello Skeezyks and thank you for welcoming me to the forum. And I am of the same opinion, after thinking about it the only thing that would made most sense (although ironically it doesn't) is that they had a conversation about me (but their conversations are always about me and how M can change) but this time with a decision to block me out. Sometimes I just wondered and assume they turned gay overnight. Nothing made sense. But I appreciate your kind words and understanding. Yes, I have real life friends. I have just finished university and as I have mentioned I never had looked online to find a friend. They happened to me by accident. I have been a skeptic about these online things, never would have engaged myself with it, and even when I found myself close to these two I still refused to reveal my anonymity even when they have asked a few times. M particularly, it bothered him that we can't talk on the phone or do video calls or that he doesn't know my full first name. It is my name actually, he just never knew it and thought I gave him a random name. H on the other hand knew it was my name, and out of respect never asked again after I said no when he first asked about revealing anonymity. So I am not those who are friendless and look for online friends, it happened to me by accident and I learned that you can get to a person's heart/soul easier when typing that real life where there are masks and a lot of things. It probably explained why we got so close quickly, we typed what crosses our minds, no filters no masks.