I know. It's one of my problems, I am very black and white. I don't operate on emotions or things like this. If someone asks me X I will answer with Y. To me it is simple. If M asked me how much I liked a person, I answered. I write whatever is on my mind, I do not lie and I do not hide. That is my character. And H had always known that I was hurt by him leaving me, he knew it, felt bad for it, and told me it was not like that. But H is always the kind, optimistic soul, so when I said it doesnt matter it's in the past, he agrees and we talked again like normal. He is the kind of guy who would find time to go on 7 Cups of Tea to help anyone he can find, even when he himself is busy with his own troubles. His motto in life is literally to make everyone happy. Even if M told him I gave him 5/10, H may have been hurt but it's not the kind that would be enough to do what he did. He would have asked me and tried to mend it and tried to make me happy again, that's his character. And we have talked for 2-4 years, they both know me very well. They know how straightforward I am, how black and white I am, and it's also what they find to be one of the most interesting things about me. Also the cause of most of our fights. Nonetheless, thank you for your reply. I also doubt it is the cause of this, M knows me very well. But when he found out I prefer him more than H, despite what I said to him about H, he also said "Dee Ari, what an enigma you are".