I feel so low I'll take any company. I swear if she makes a pass I'll give in. My friend said she'd check on me today around one. It's almost three. I'm about finished with the energy drink and getting revved up for this ride. Maybe I'll get run over, maybe I won't make it, maybe I'll make it and have done a new thing today. It's almost entirely uphill to get there with four lame traffic and nothing but danger and the knowledge that I should not do this. That's exactly why I am riding today. Defiance, purely.