I have mixed feelings about my last pdoc visit. Well, one positive thing, I got a new med to try for anxiety (Its a familiar name but I can't recall it right now). I'll keep an eye on my anxiety, but I seem to be coping at the moment.

Sleep stuff. She insisted I try the prescribed Trazadone and reassured me not to be anxious. We also hashed out some of my anxieties. Anyway, so I tried that for a few nights. I'm sleeping better. And funny that I'm no more drowsy than I usually am (because of the poor sleep or trying to catch up whatnots). So that's a plus!

The mixed thing is that when I talked about my depression I kinda also said my doubts about bipolar. She's not so sure about it now either. I can't ever forget how I felt when I mixed the ADHD med with the AD though. Is THAT hypomania? Is that what folks frequently go through?! It was miserable! Well, guess i felt pretty confident in myself, but still...oh But the comedown was pleasant (euphoric). I dunno! I've had those euphoric feelings since going off those meds and taking mood stabilizers, but not as much. More down or normal to low normal. I'm just very unsettled not knowing.

What else? I didn't mention or think to mention, how reading is becoming difficult for me. Like focus and stuff.

Speaking of lack of focus, I did try to get back on Zoloft. I liked it for the moods, she was looking for an anti anxiety med. I'm not back on it. I kinda want to be, but I'm now worried about memory loss that someone here mentioned with Ads. Just because my paternal grandmother had dementia and my mom takes antidepressants and I swear they've affected her memory. If I do have simply major depression and this is the fix, is it worth it? Sigh

But I'm getting ahead of myself. How do I feel today?? PMs stomach ache and cramps. Nuff said. Lol