I'm sorry I don't imagine I have any advice that would be useful for you. But I noticed no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would. I guess the only thing I can think of to say is that I find, in my own day-to-day life, routine is very important. I do pretty-much the same things every day. And I do them in pretty-much the same way.

This isn't anything that is going to help with the thoughts you're battling. But, in terms of eating... I wonder if there might be some way to establish a routine that would help you to smooth out your eating schedule, so that you're not starving one day & binging the next. Perhaps your T could help you with this? I don't know... it's just a thought.