Disclaimer before the actual question (and TW for everything I'm about to say):

I may or may not have been molested as a child. This would have been around age 5-6, when I was left alone on several occasions with my mom's scumbag boyfriend/cocaine dealer. I have all the telltale signs and symptoms...except for the actual memories. I often wonder if the memories have been repressed, as often happens in these cases.

However, I was also chronically ill (severe asthma) and frequently hospitalized from birth until my preteen years. These hospital stays often involved invasive procedures such as urinary catheter insertion, ventilator tube insertion, needle sticks all over my body, etc. It was all done while I was awake, and I frequently had to be held down, screaming and thrashing, while these procedures took place. I have no memory of this either. What I just described was recounted by the family members who were with me at the time. The reason I mention it here is because I've read about other cases of children undergoing similar procedures who ended up exhibiting the same signs/symptoms of childhood sexual abuse even though they were never molested. Having medical implements forcibly inserted into one's private parts and mouth is almost like being raped in many ways--the pain, the violation, the betrayal of trust, the loss of power and bodily autonomy--especially when it happens to a toddler who's too young to understand any of it. It makes a lot of sense that the resulting emotional trauma would be very similar (if not identical) to that of CSA survivors.

TL;DR - I may have been molested, or I may just have trauma from undergoing invasive medical procedures as a young child.

Okay, now to get back to the original question...

Some people would argue that a spouse has the right to know about everyone their spouse has had sexual contact with. My sex ed classes always emphasized the importance of complete honesty about your sexual history whenever you get a new partner. Meaning you basically give them a list of all your past sexual partners. Whether this should include non-consensual sex is up for debate.

Part of me wants to explain this to my husband (because I equate intimacy with honesty), but another part of me is afraid it will make things "weird" and uncomfortable between us in the bedroom. I definitely don't want the latter!

Do I have an obligation to tell my husband about the possibility of being sexually abused by my mom's boyfriend?