Why are you inviting her over?

I know this is probably something you don't want to hear, but you'll always, to varying degrees, feel depressed and self-destructive. We all have it within us to be. The thing is, these feelings are just that. Feelings. So sit in it. Sit in that fear and anger and self-destrucrtion because you're strong enough to do it. Let yourself feel all of these ****** feelings because they are yours. They're not right or wrong.

I hope you're not inviting her over to quell your emotions. You'll only end up feeling worse after all is said and done and I think you know that.