Thread: I said no more
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Old Jun 04, 2018, 07:03 PM
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Originally Posted by carcrashonrepeat View Post
Why are you inviting her over?

I know this is probably something you don't want to hear, but you'll always, to varying degrees, feel depressed and self-destructive. We all have it within us to be. The thing is, these feelings are just that. Feelings. So sit in it. Sit in that fear and anger and self-destrucrtion because you're strong enough to do it. Let yourself feel all of these ****** feelings because they are yours. They're not right or wrong.

I hope you're not inviting her over to quell your emotions. You'll only end up feeling worse after all is said and done and I think you know that.
I didn't feel self destructive, for quite a while. Then, like a fool I allowed myself to think about women that I knew I liked. That's my downfall. I love to fall in love, even though I know it's going to make me miserable every time.
If she offers I might just because I can, knowing I shouldn't the entire time.
But for today I got over seven bicycle miles in with hella hill getting there, fifteen minutes elliptical and 45 minutes of really good yoga. I found out a friend from another gym asked about me and that made me feel really good inside. The ride home was mostly downhill and that was awesome. The rush was extreme and otherworldly. This is what I'm supposed to do with my life, my natural endorphin high