Perna ~ thanks for your reply . i agree .. i should keep going .. because it is helping me ... but i feel bad when i come home and he says things like that to me. If i knew how to control the after effects of therapy and not allow him to trigger me .. that would be good .. thinking at the same time - maybe he doesnt really want me well.. however he agrees to let me go ..so not sure what he expects.
If getting well means i will be stronger and able to take care of myself .. maybe that bothers him..
Right now i do not work because of my illness's - cannot hold a steady job.. but if i get better and able to do that ... maybe he doesnt like that .. i dont know.
i feel useless as far as earning an income to help us out of debt ..
So i stay home most the time ..and work .. the usual housework and then some .. do all the shopping for food .. it is constant work but keeps me busy .... just doesnt pay enough.