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Originally Posted by SorryShaped
But what if it doesn't? What if I've already had the best I'm ever going to find? What if the universe says "no more. You've messed up everything and you should be all alone."
I'm really deserving of a lot of karma-slapping. I've been a terrible person and continue to eff it all up regularly. I'm having very calm thoughts of simply putting myself out like a light that's broken. I should be afraid of those thoughts, but I'm not. I'm ok with being at my end, or not being there. I exist to eventually die, as we all do.
I'm fighting the idea of staying sober right now by cooking food I really like. It's a dish that I enjoy but I don't think my ex ever did. She'll be over in about 4 hours.
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But what if it does! “Someone” said this to me recently....you don’t know what’s behind a closed door until you open it.” Wise wisdom indeed.
And I don’t feel karma works like that, an eye for an eye. It’s not a scoreboard for good & bad.
There’s actually a mathematical algorithm for love. Did you know that? Heard it on some tedtalk but the big dating websites use it. Synopsis? You have to date like 20-25 people. They have a high success rate. Yeah go figure I know. But I’m saying, this was an experience, not the end of the line. Kind of like a boxing match. Sit on your stool & you’ll hear the bell soon to get you back in the ring. Know what I mean?
And now is a FANTASTIC time to call your ex, cancel bec cough, cough, you’re coming down with something AND you’ll have leftovers for tomorrow!