Yes I can relate to this. It's kind-of the way I am much of the time. I don't know what causes it though. In my case, I presume it is a mixture of depression & anxiety. The depression makes it difficult to work up enthusiasm for much of anything. And the anxiety contributes that antsy feeling. It's sort-of a "push-me-pull-you" sort of experience. Especially first thing in the morning, after I get up, all I want to do is go back to bed & pull the covers up over my head. But, at the same time, I know I would be too antsy to stay there. So I just stay up & do what needs to be done.

I'm not a mental health professional, by the way. And I don't know what your gender is, of course. (I'm male.) But what you describe (& what I experience) is, I believe, more-or-less typical of depression in men. Here's a link to an article, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/10-thi...le-depression/

(Perhaps if you're female, however, you simply are struggling with a form of depression that is similar?)

I'm not sure what to tell you as far as how to deal with this goes. Therapy would be the thing that would typically be recommended. I know you mentioned you had seen a therapist but without much success. Perhaps the therapist you saw was not the best one for you? Or perhaps you didn't hang in there long enough? (That's been an issue for me over the years.) One technique for dealing with anger that seems to be recommended quite often, in the articles in PsychCentral's archives, is the practice of mindfulness. Here's an example:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/3-mind...avigate-anger/

Perhaps another way of describing what you're dealing with is that you just feel lost. Here's a link to an article that talks about that:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...sts_position=2

Beyond that, the only thing I can think of to say is that, somehow, perhaps you have to find something you can commit yourself to. I'm an older person now. And I find that routine becomes increasingly important... & significant... in my day-to-day life. I pretty-much do the same things day-in & day-out. And one of the things I do is to reply to posts here on PC... a lot of them! And over time, it has become something of a passion for me. It didn't start out that way. But that's what it seems to have evolved into... to a large extent, I believe, through repetition. So, perhaps, if you can find something you're at least willing to do (you don't have to love it at first), & if you do it & keep doing it, maybe over time it can become a life-raft, so to speak that, you can use to "float" yourself beyond the anger, boredom & annoyance you currently feel. I don't know... it's just a thought. I wish you well...