My boyfriend and I are madly in love, I have no desire to look or talk to other men as he is all that I want. I'm a mother of three and was formerly in an abusive marriage for 18 years. I have self esteem issues with my body and even tho my bf tells me daily he loves my body idk how to believe him and feel happy about it. I recently discovered he frequently visits porn sites and live cam chat rooms when im not around. When we r together all I can do is compare myself with those images and i feel ugly, embarrassed of my body and inadequate. Its not so much the fact that he looks at it, i think its more of the fact that they all look perfect and nothing like me. I love him so much but it deeply bothers me so much and idk what to do....