I have a really hard time dealing with disapproval from other people. Thats why I'm really shy around people. I want someone who approves of me and supports me. I want someone to help me feel good about myself. If someone in my life could keep reminding me that I'm awsome I feel like that would help me. But I'm afraid to ask for something like that because I don't think people want to tell me I'm awsome when I'm feeling bad about something. I just want reassurance from people who are close to me or a good friend to help me back up when I'm feeling down. Is it too much to ask for that? Because I feel like it is. That's all I want.

Another thing is I want to go up and talk to someone but no matter how much I want to I can't do it. I imagine the worst thing happening. Like if I somehow come off to someone in the wrong way then they'll say bad things about me to other people and then everyone will avoid me and that's my worst fear is everyone avoiding me like I'm some terrible person. That's why I want to go somewhere else that's not near home and try talking to people because it might be easier. Probably won't help at all though.