I am sorry to hear that. I understand that it is hard to cope with some better than others. I've done therapy on and off for 10 years. When things are good they are amazing but when things are bad they are horrible. I want nothing more than to live a normal life but at the same time I take what's wrong with me as I am different from everyone else. It isn't always a bad things unless it causes conflict. My main issue is with relationships, weather it maybe with family, friends or significant other. I've had a lot of bad things happen to me caused by the people I love. So I automatically put up a walla to protect myself and unless someone understands what its like to suffer from PTSD than its almost impossible helping someone understand why yu are the way yu are. I believe in time things will get better for me and anyone else going through it as well. It just takes a lot of Time, energy and being focused. I lose sight of my goals bcuz I get severely depressed and nothing makes sense. Don't give up hope.