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Originally Posted by SorryShaped
With the level of guilt and self loathing I'm carrying right now, I don't trust things to ever get better. There's no lifting these burdens. And ffs, nobody give me any religion on this, it makes me question your motives. Church is a place where I distrust everyone and everything they say, because I was regularly beaten up, bullied, and developed quite the attitude of "let's see how many sins I can check off the list while I'm here, because they make me go here"
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Wow... I never said for you to go to church or anything like that. I am sorry for what happened to you. My personal experiences are my personal experiences, and my faith are intimately tied to how I communicate. That, in and of itself, shouldn't be an affront to you.
And lets be real, for every piece of advice given here on the thread - not just by me - you have found a way to sidestep and squirm your way out of it. Everyone here cares about you. I see you suffering and I want to help. That is it. So if you want to question my motives, go for it. Question away because I have nothing to hide from you.
Keep in mind what I've placed in bold - right now - feelings are not facts. You know this will pass. It may come around again but you'll see yourself out of the fog. When you do, maybe revisit the advice given here and see if any of it is worth seriously considering.
Take care
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And no one is hearing screaming
There's always something that's pulling me down, down, down
And this is nothing new...
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